Misery does not love company, especially not if they wear skinny jeans and have no idea of what it’s like to live in a body the size of a small country where you have been exiled. Misery loves donuts. Why? So it can make you even more miserable. Misery is just another name for the evil one, and donuts are another of His deadly weapons.
I gave into way too many of Misery’s death traps. They certainly didn’t take away my difficulties. They only added to them, spiraling me down, down, down to some of my life’s lowest points.
In my darkest hours, I felt it would be better for my family if I were dead. I was a huge burden to them. I asked them to bring me things, such as food, of course. Carry the laundry upstairs. Get the groceries out of the car. Drop me off at the door. At one point I got stuck in the bathtub and had to have my husband pry me loose. I was so embarrassed.
I was not doing my job of being a loving wife and mother. I had vowed when I was a kid and my mother was ill with manic depression that if God gave me a husband and children, I would take care of them. I wouldn’t abandon my duties as a mom because I wouldn’t get sick like that.
Food Was My Drug of Choice
Yet, I was there. Mine was different, of course. I ate in order to not be depressed, to cover up my emotions, to not have the high highs and low lows, to anesthetize my pain. Still, I was emotionally ill.
Of course, no one can really command an illness, such as depression of any type, to leave except Jesus. Food, especially foods made with sugar and flour, was my drug of choice to take care of my emotional issues, or so I thought.
It was an endless cycle, though. I ate to not feel sad, overwhelmed or depressed. Then, I was sad, overwhelmed and depressed because I was gaining weight. I was miserable. There was no end in sight.
Enter The Hero
“Like the hero who takes the stage when we’re on the edge of our seats saying its too late. Well, let me introduce you to amazing grace.”1
It really was like that. Jesus rode into my situation on His white horse, brandishing His sword of grace. He rescued me, but first I had to want to be rescued. I had to want to change from a victim to a victor.
He had me take a multiple choice test with only two possible answers to see if I was ready. Then, like the gracious heavenly Father He is, He gave me the answer.
“Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live! You can make this choice by loving the Lord your God, obeying Him, and committing yourself firmly to Him. This is the key to your life.”2
When I chose life, I knew exactly what I had to do. Committing firmly to Him meant He was first before any temptations, any cravings, any desires. He was Plan A when I was depressed, frustrated, miserable, sad, overworked, tired or even, hungry. Plan B of running to food for comfort was no longer an option.
How could I do that when food had always been my Plan A? “Oh what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. He has set me free.”3
I needed His grace to work it’s power in me. First, though, I had to surrender, and allow Jesus to take the wheel. I had to admit my weakness, my abject poverty. I needed His grace.
He said, “My grace is enough. It’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.”4
And of that, I am living proof.
I’ve lost more than 260 pounds with God’s help. I understand the struggles of being really, no, I mean REALLY overweight. I know you are hurting. I know you want to just unzip your body and leave it behind. Instead, what if you stepped into who God designed you to be from the beginning of time? Certainly that includes losing weight, but it’s so much more than that. This issue of sugar and food addiction goes to the very core of our being. Don’t worry, though, with God’s help we can be set on the course to losing weight and keeping it off.
I’ve developed #KickWeight just for you. It’s a place to get headed in the right direction. This new six-month foundational weight loss coaching class is very similar to what I’ve been teaching in Sweet Change Coaching Group where we’re getting amazing breakthroughs. However, God said offer #KickWeight at a ridiculously low price. It’s worth twice that much and more. I want to be obedient, and I want you to have a thorough understanding of how to do weight loss God’s way. So, #KickWeight is open now! Folks are coming in, and I’m excited to begin. DOORS WILL CLOSE ON APRIL 1 and the class will begin. It’s time to make your decision. Join now to get the pre-class assignments by going HERE.